how can you know

You never really know a person until you see them in ministry...
How do people date here???

I can't imagine myself meeting my future partner FOR LIFE in Bible college.
That's just crazy to me; to me, it's beyond logic.

tbh i miss it...

ministry, 
Starry

Homesick Liao Lah

This fragile heart sometimes forgets to beat.

This weary head can sometimes fail to rise.

These broken hands take care of much defeat.

These fleeting breaths end many nights in cries.

This foreign face peers into strangers’ sights.

Its ears are craving for familiar rings.

Its skin so longs to feel connecting flights.

Its eyes and mouth speak only alien things.

But when by faith I fall before His throne

And see my Master’s never-changing gaze,

I gain all hope; I know I’m not alone.

I know I’m loved; I joy to give Him praise.

When on that day I reach my heav’nly home,

I’ll know the smallness of this earth I roam. 

she went

Life is so busy when you actually have friends...
But then you realize that they're not what you thought they were and that you've been reading the entire relationship wrong this whole time.

You start to wonder whom you can really trust on campus.
You start to doubt every stranger since you can't even stop doubting your only friend.

You think back to every struggle she's ever opened up to you about and question why He flung those doors open.
You start to question if your reaction and handling have been right all this time.
You start to wonder if you've truly lived that noticeable life of Christ which backs your words.

You start to realize that you're alone here on earth. You start to gather the courage to face the harsh reality that you're simply not meant to have any human company.
You start to remember that you're far away from home and from anything familiar or even slightly understandable.

You start to feel the loneliness.

You start to live the loving reality that He has designed it all to be that way, all so that it'd be easier for you to focus on the most important relationship, on Him.

You start to joy in the pain.
You start to praise through the rain.
You start to let Him pick you up where you've stumbled over the block.
You start to smile again as you see His face just a little more clearly.

You start to learn that-
that-
There is nothing that I need in this life, Lord! When I have You, I really don't know what else to ask for!
I have lost all expectations of man, Father. And I have been strengthened in all expectations of You.
You are faithful, Daddy. You never fail.
Your love always stands; Your heart never wavers.
All glory always goes to You; all my confidence is built on that.
Oh Lord, how foolish I have been! What a fool I was for having a friend as an idol! Forgive me... I have been so wrong!
Help me, oh God! You be my heart. You be my love. You be my strength. You be my courage.
With a mustard seed of faith, I step out, Daddy. I know it's barely anything, but I know- I know it is enough.
Thank You for everything... everything.
In Jesus' most precious, holy name do I come before You to communicate with You.
Oh all glory be to Him! What a great price I had put upon myself; what a selfless sacrifice He had ventured out to fulfill.
In His glorious, powerful name I pray and praise and live.
Amen.

Starry