I asked You why You always talk to me when I'm in pain.
You said that it was because my ears are more open when I'm hurt.
If that's what it takes to hear Your voice and feel Your presence that clearly, Lord, then that's what I want.
God, I am nothing without you.
Before I knew You, I wanted to end my life.
It's almost as if nothing has changed in that fact, because if I stop knowing You now, I'd want to end my life just the same.
I lose sight of that fact so often, God.
My heart thinks I am a living sacrifice because of that fact, but You know better and often tell me about it all.
Teach me obedience, God.
I don't fully know what it is.
Teach me to be immediate; help my heart to run and not just walk when You tell me to go.
Teach me to love You, Father.
Teach me death and life in You, Jesus.
I have given my life to You, and it was the best decision I could have ever made.
I sometimes don't know about my intentions, God, because of how my heart is so deceitful, but I know one thing right now:
There is a hundred percent nothing in me which regrets giving my life to You.
You have given me joy, hope, peace,
while all I can give You is this wretched, weak life.
And the crazy thing is...
that is exactly what You want, isn't it?
This wretched, weak life...
Thank you doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of my feelings for You, but I'll start from there, God.
Thank You.
For You~
I look forward and can't wait for our date tomorrow!
I feel like I miss You already, hahaha.
Goodnight, Daddy.
Starry
