Listen, Starry. And listen to it hard.
If this is a goal you have set for yourself, what makes you think you can achieve it without any hard work? Without any practice? Without any sacrifice?
What makes you think right now that you can do well if you don't put in the effort to even work?!
Listen up and listen well!
Stop griping about people who are lazy and yet appear to make it in life. Stop complaining about the lot that you have received; just buck up, grit your teeth, work with what you've got, and straighten that iron back you've always got.
You're strong.
You're determined.
You're hardy, and you're an achiever.
Don't fall and stay flat in the slums: it doesn't suit you.
And it really just isn't you!
You're someone so much better than that. You're you!
Look. Keep every inch of motivation in your mind, knowing that you are more than conquerors.
Do everything, knowing that every success observable is a success granted and allowed by Him.
But Starry.
He's not going to do anything if all He's got to work with is a lazy, ungrateful, failing, useless servant like YOU!
Get the hell back up on your feet. Plant them once more on solid ground. Keep your freaking face in the pages of the Word, and DO YOUR STINKIN' WORK!
'Cause it's what He's given you; 'cause it's what He's asked of you; 'cause He loved you and gave HIMSELF for you!
Wake up, you slothful servant.
Work hard and work to hear His praise!
You can do this. You definitely can. You've got Him, and you've got lots which He has given you!
So do it.
Just do it.
Do it and make Him proud.
He loves you; love Him back.
Work hard. Get a good score in His books; get a good score with your elders. Let's do this.