I've been fighting this for so long now... 2017 marks the two-year mark; I've been battling it for two years now.
I've often related it to a marriage; I'm pretty much completely comfortable with her, and so is she with me.
That ease often brings out our true sides, and obviously with two human beings, these true sides clash and create conflict. Such conflicts are not necessarily all there are in a marriage, but they definitely are an element which make marriage as difficult as it is.
How I react in this relationship, then, is a direct relation to how I will soon react in my future marriage.
But drawing the relation of this battle to marriage has somehow warped my view of what romantic relationships are.
I've become tired, sick, and even repulsed by romantic relationships. Sure, I'd like that human company and all the butterflies in the stomach, but when I think of the battles I'd have to face in a marriage, I scram. It's not worth it at all! It's horrific! I'm already suffering so much in my current battle, how much more severe would it be when marriage actually comes around?
But those thoughts only come because I've drawn the wrong relations.
The relation, instead, should be this:
This current battle right now is one which I will have to face if I marry the wrong person.
This current battle right now is one which I will be able to better fight if I listen hard to the Lord and marry the one He's chosen for me.
The way I act in this battle, then, is how I would behave in a WRONG marriage, not in ALL marriages.
The takeaway, thus, is to not marry the wrong person and to be sympathetic towards those who did; their trials are sooo so hard: think about yours right now.
The takeaway is also to listen to His voice on which person is right for you and right for His kingdom.
The takeaway is to not draw any more wrong relations which are extra-Scriptural. Stick to only Scripture for what is true.
I guess we got that figured out, huh Lord?
I think I got it figured out 'cause I was able to voice it out to him. Thanks for brothers-in-Christ, Daddy. They truly reflect Your work and character.
...
I guess I worried him for nothing then.
Hahahahahahahaha whoops~
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
Monday, January 2, 2017
2017 huh
Well, I guess it's 2017 now...
Though this is meant to be a cool post recounting the year of 2016, I have to say: I pretty much have nothing emo to share.
I don't really get too sad... but I don't really get too happy about anything either.
I don't know.
Life has just come to be something dead to me. I've just somehow come to treat it with nonchalance.
Nothing really matters to me anymore.
I'm alive for one sole reason, for one sole purpose, for one sole Being.
& I don't know.
But it sure does make this emotionless person smile like a lunatic, like a highschooler madly in love.
Bad things happen, sure, but they don't really put me down... or I should say: they CAN'T put me down: I'm held by stronger things, I'm held by Him.
Good things happen, too, yes, of course they do; but none of them really affect me that much... not when His face is constantly in my view, making the good things fade in comparison.
What's a 4.0 GPA when I think of sitting at His feet in eternity? What are men's praises when I can shut myself tight in my prayer closet and hear His "well done" instead?
Is it 2017 now?
It doesn't really matter that much to me. Sure, it marks a certain point in time and history, and yes, I still am breathing and existing for now, but none of it really matters to me.
I just don't really care about the existence of time anymore.
I'm doing my best to live for Him; I'm ending my days without regret, and I'm spending every moment with the One I love so so so much.
I'm doing His will. I'm running towards sanctification everyday.
I don't mind dying, but I don't mind living either. After all, He's the One who's in control.
It's just a state of "I have Him. And that's all that matters. That's all I care about."
Hey Papa,
It's 2017~ Why did You let me live to see this year?
What do You have planned for the history of mankind?
What kind of glorious story are You going to unfold in 2017?
How are we going to sing of it in eternity future?
Hahahaha, I get strangely excited, thinking about it~
Papa.
This world is so imperfect. This place is so ruined by us and our sin.
But You didn't turn away when You had every right to.
Instead You sent Your Son to redeem it and bring in sons of glory.
You are amazing. You are beyond our comprehension. Thank You~
You're the best.
I guess that ends 2016, huh.
2017... you battles, you enemy, you victories, here we come~
Though this is meant to be a cool post recounting the year of 2016, I have to say: I pretty much have nothing emo to share.
I don't really get too sad... but I don't really get too happy about anything either.
I don't know.
Life has just come to be something dead to me. I've just somehow come to treat it with nonchalance.
Nothing really matters to me anymore.
I'm alive for one sole reason, for one sole purpose, for one sole Being.
& I don't know.
But it sure does make this emotionless person smile like a lunatic, like a highschooler madly in love.
Bad things happen, sure, but they don't really put me down... or I should say: they CAN'T put me down: I'm held by stronger things, I'm held by Him.
Good things happen, too, yes, of course they do; but none of them really affect me that much... not when His face is constantly in my view, making the good things fade in comparison.
What's a 4.0 GPA when I think of sitting at His feet in eternity? What are men's praises when I can shut myself tight in my prayer closet and hear His "well done" instead?
Is it 2017 now?
It doesn't really matter that much to me. Sure, it marks a certain point in time and history, and yes, I still am breathing and existing for now, but none of it really matters to me.
I just don't really care about the existence of time anymore.
I'm doing my best to live for Him; I'm ending my days without regret, and I'm spending every moment with the One I love so so so much.
I'm doing His will. I'm running towards sanctification everyday.
I don't mind dying, but I don't mind living either. After all, He's the One who's in control.
It's just a state of "I have Him. And that's all that matters. That's all I care about."
Hey Papa,
It's 2017~ Why did You let me live to see this year?
What do You have planned for the history of mankind?
What kind of glorious story are You going to unfold in 2017?
How are we going to sing of it in eternity future?
Hahahaha, I get strangely excited, thinking about it~
Papa.
This world is so imperfect. This place is so ruined by us and our sin.
But You didn't turn away when You had every right to.
Instead You sent Your Son to redeem it and bring in sons of glory.
You are amazing. You are beyond our comprehension. Thank You~
You're the best.
I guess that ends 2016, huh.
2017... you battles, you enemy, you victories, here we come~
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