I've been fighting this for so long now... 2017 marks the two-year mark; I've been battling it for two years now.
I've often related it to a marriage; I'm pretty much completely comfortable with her, and so is she with me.
That ease often brings out our true sides, and obviously with two human beings, these true sides clash and create conflict. Such conflicts are not necessarily all there are in a marriage, but they definitely are an element which make marriage as difficult as it is.
How I react in this relationship, then, is a direct relation to how I will soon react in my future marriage.
But drawing the relation of this battle to marriage has somehow warped my view of what romantic relationships are.
I've become tired, sick, and even repulsed by romantic relationships. Sure, I'd like that human company and all the butterflies in the stomach, but when I think of the battles I'd have to face in a marriage, I scram. It's not worth it at all! It's horrific! I'm already suffering so much in my current battle, how much more severe would it be when marriage actually comes around?
But those thoughts only come because I've drawn the wrong relations.
The relation, instead, should be this:
This current battle right now is one which I will have to face if I marry the wrong person.
This current battle right now is one which I will be able to better fight if I listen hard to the Lord and marry the one He's chosen for me.
The way I act in this battle, then, is how I would behave in a WRONG marriage, not in ALL marriages.
The takeaway, thus, is to not marry the wrong person and to be sympathetic towards those who did; their trials are sooo so hard: think about yours right now.
The takeaway is also to listen to His voice on which person is right for you and right for His kingdom.
The takeaway is to not draw any more wrong relations which are extra-Scriptural. Stick to only Scripture for what is true.
I guess we got that figured out, huh Lord?
I think I got it figured out 'cause I was able to voice it out to him. Thanks for brothers-in-Christ, Daddy. They truly reflect Your work and character.
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I guess I worried him for nothing then.
Hahahahahahahaha whoops~
