text messages

I remember when you used to send me a message every morning and every night.

Good morning. 

Goodnight. 

It's funny how some people can base their feelings on hormones and call it love. 

You don't know what Love is. 

You just don't. 

greetings, 

Starry 

my conversation

Your mum–
Your mum is an overachiever.
She is someone who strives for perfection and, to be honest, comes pretty close to reaching it.
She's poised and proper and makes no compromises.
She is emotional yet stable; she judges yet loves.

Your dad–
Your dad's messy history only made him stronger.
When the storm came, he stood his ground and faced the winds.
His strength may come off as stubbornness to some and arrogance to others, but to me–
To me–
He is a man who is dependable because he depends on God.
He is what a man ought to be.

God gave you amazing parents.
I'm glad you cherish them.

impressions, 
Starry

i see nothing but

OH MY GOODNESS, MY BOY, I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Why?
WHY?!

I JUST SEE NOTHING BUT GOD'S GRACE.

I–
I am really, pretty much, the most boring person ever.
I am not bubbly, enthusiastic, positive– I AM JUST A BIG BLAH.
I have zero interests, and I don't exactly fill people's lives with jelly beans and rainbows!

I–
I have nothing.

So why do you enjoy my company?
That, to me, is just the weirdest thing ever.
It is strange. It is abnormal.
It is God's grace.

I SEE NOTHING BUT GOD'S GRACE.

And I really REALLY don't deserve it.

grace, 
Starry

two dollars

I'd apologize again, but I know it won't do anything.

I understand that sin has consequences attached to it.

And I know that the impossibility of restoring my testimony is the consequence which I have to face right now.

So I will.
I will.
And I humbly accept this reproach from God.

lie, 

Starry 

what happened

Something happened...
Something did.

Something happened between us.
What is it?

Tell me; you can tell me.
But you won't.
And I won't even ask.
Just like how I know you won't ask me anything you find to be sensitive.

I know something happened between you and her.
You know that I know, yet you pretend I do not.
You do not see me as your mentor!
You do not see me as your friend!
At least not by my definitions!
And you.
You do not know how precious you are to me.

I'm at my wit's end, and all I hear from God is wait.
Have patience, Starry, wait.

What happened?
...
Tell me; you can tell me.

That thing.
That thing that happened between you and her?
It's influencing OUR relationship.

And you don't see it.
You don't see it at all.

Sure, I'll cover it up.
I'll cover it aaalllll up.
Not for YOUR sake, you do not deserve it.
For God, for my Father, for my Savior,
I will.

patience, 
Starry