& this is why I enjoy being alone...
The pain of people, the noise of the crowd, the fake smiles that I have to squeeze out to protect my Lord's name when I struggle--I can live without these.
I told a friend yesterday night...
I told him that even if struggles exist in service, be strong in the Lord and press on to have faith in His love and His might. Put on the armor and work together with Him.
My social life is a form of service. I struggle with it, but I know my loving Father has put me in a position like this to strengthen me, mold me, and love me. This is my faith. This is my strength.
I will press on.
I will serve.
I will love.
...
People in camp are complaining that they are serving and not recharging... even my leader has joined them. Why do they not see serving as a lifestyle? It is our calling to constantly deny ourselves, take up our crosses, and follow Him. Whether it be with children, video, or logistics, I will continue to serve my Lord. Because service isn't about the program! It's about the heart! And life will always be filled with the calling to serve. To serve people by loving them, to serve God's purpose by submitting to Him, to serve the church by helping with structured programs--these are ALL THE SAME. They stem from the same attitude in the heart, and when we lose sight of that, we put ourselves in a box of systematic serving that limits our potential and purpose for the Lord! It speaks of just how much love we have for our God whose love is out of this world.
Serving--
Service--
is a constant thing!
My dear leader, I am praying for you. I love you and, to a certain extent, I admire and look up to you. You are my shepherd, and I am put under you by my God. I will continue to uphold you in my prayers and seek to serve you in any way possible.
church camp,
Starry
