Well, I guess it's 2017 now...
Though this is meant to be a cool post recounting the year of 2016, I have to say: I pretty much have nothing emo to share.
I don't really get too sad... but I don't really get too happy about anything either.
I don't know.
Life has just come to be something dead to me. I've just somehow come to treat it with nonchalance.
Nothing really matters to me anymore.
I'm alive for one sole reason, for one sole purpose, for one sole Being.
& I don't know.
But it sure does make this emotionless person smile like a lunatic, like a highschooler madly in love.
Bad things happen, sure, but they don't really put me down... or I should say: they CAN'T put me down: I'm held by stronger things, I'm held by Him.
Good things happen, too, yes, of course they do; but none of them really affect me that much... not when His face is constantly in my view, making the good things fade in comparison.
What's a 4.0 GPA when I think of sitting at His feet in eternity? What are men's praises when I can shut myself tight in my prayer closet and hear His "well done" instead?
Is it 2017 now?
It doesn't really matter that much to me. Sure, it marks a certain point in time and history, and yes, I still am breathing and existing for now, but none of it really matters to me.
I just don't really care about the existence of time anymore.
I'm doing my best to live for Him; I'm ending my days without regret, and I'm spending every moment with the One I love so so so much.
I'm doing His will. I'm running towards sanctification everyday.
I don't mind dying, but I don't mind living either. After all, He's the One who's in control.
It's just a state of "I have Him. And that's all that matters. That's all I care about."
Hey Papa,
It's 2017~ Why did You let me live to see this year?
What do You have planned for the history of mankind?
What kind of glorious story are You going to unfold in 2017?
How are we going to sing of it in eternity future?
Hahahaha, I get strangely excited, thinking about it~
Papa.
This world is so imperfect. This place is so ruined by us and our sin.
But You didn't turn away when You had every right to.
Instead You sent Your Son to redeem it and bring in sons of glory.
You are amazing. You are beyond our comprehension. Thank You~
You're the best.
I guess that ends 2016, huh.
2017... you battles, you enemy, you victories, here we come~
